It’s kinda silly to believe this pseudo-science, as my friends in college who took psychology as their major, told me that there are no credible and valid proofs about the MBTI thingy. But have you ever felt so connected with an unrealistic thing? There! Maybe this one is included. So, I’m happy to talk about MBTI. Read the explanation from the web, I laughed. It touched me. Here’s the screenshot.
See? My previous posts explained his traits and this one above, has almost covered them all in one paragraph. How could I not laugh? I unintended found the link on Pinterest and the title attracted me. Was it some kind of coincidence or what?
Last week, he gave me a topic to solve. I needed to make a thinking map about what he intended to say to me, as he’s Mr. Subtle & Ambiguity who rarely explains in the literal meaning. The challenge he offered truly thrilled me on. But my ability to explore more, observe deep, and become super sensitive to gather the information I need in building the map, have to be held. I’m the one who holds it until now, too afraid to be hurt, too fragile to accept the reality if it doesn’t bring any good vibes.
I’m at the stage where sleepless night is my best time to focus on doing my priority. I may not sensitive to my surroundings but I’m too sensitive to myself, and his everything is one of the triggers for my internal sensitivity. His sadness, his happiness, his voice, somehow created the various moods for me. Also, about this and that related to my priority, take the most on affecting my mood. At the same time, I tend to be quiet, pull myself from human contact, especially to do a deep talk in person. I’m more comfortable to talk through the chat or call. But as a social person who loves to hang out and surround myself with the crowd, I don’t refuse to have two or three hours of laughing and chatting socially. Seems paradox, huh? I know, welcome to my world. It’s confusing, even for me.
As a person who is mood-driven, I try to keep my mood stable so I can do my priority and meet the deadline I made. Though it’s hard, I keep on trying and look what I’ve become!
I found an article about MBTI that explains this trait, again I overwhelmed. The explanation about ENFPs and stress on The ENFP Under Stress section tells a lot about what happened to me in past few months. Even though not all the explanation feels right, but some of them are. The closest condition I’m aware of is my post about feeling blandness, lack of focus on practical things, short-time pleasure and sadness, etc. Here’s the section I quoted:
When ENFPs become stressed, their normally friendly and cheerful natures turn irritable, emotional, defensive and reactive. They often feel overwhelmed, struggle to communicate, shut out other people and reject new ideas.
Feeling trapped, out of control and unable to find a way out, they can become extremely critical of others, lashing out, blaming and finding fault with everything and everyone as they try to regain control. For some ENFPs, this can develop into a focus on routine and order, and a strict demand that everything is done their way.
ENFPs under stress also fail to see any fault in themselves. They deceive themselves as a way of coping, pretending that they are not at fault. Eventually, however, they can feel hopeless and depressed as their energy turns inward and they begin to feel numb inside.
This normally energetic type also feels the effects of stress physically, becoming exhausted and suffering from fatigue. Their tendency to give too much and do too much can make them neglect their own needs for sleep, rest and relaxation.
Unfortunately, this type is the least likely to recognize when stress has affected them and it’s only when they become ill or a crisis occurs that they realize how stressed out they’ve become.
Then, I was thinking about the reasons why things happened. Fortunately, I finally cracked some of my own code. The sudden responses from my body, either physical, thinking, or hormonal may driven by a psychological unstable condition. Which, (perhaps) has a tendency driven by my personality. I don’t even sure that my viewpoint about this is right or wrong, but it’s the best logic I can think about. Perhaps if someone by chance read this post and has a better explanation (theory included will be cool), I’d love to read and discuss.